Alchemist Phone Call

everything I put into you
it takes away
all the pieces of stars
I crush into the sublime
it eats and never
turns its head
to belch
instead
you turn
your head from
television and
from newspapers without
news of the world, without
a debriefing on the ringing
of noise and how thick it all is with fear these blurry days

(phone rings)

"Hello, is the Doctor Home To BE Saved?"
"Don't know, there are dogs in armor behaving like
bumblebees and flying towards left of center."
"Should I call for help, In the outskirts?"

(the hourglass breaks, sand spills on the cold wooden floors)

The back ground is perfect
the spindle spins and
is empty as
the last stitch is crisped
and the story is
finished.

(wind blows in through the 'out' door)

zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Untitled # 227

stitched together like a sweater
when its all held together
it works in theory but
pull the right string
and it all falls apart

and after me(drums)
and after me(strings)
and after me
comes the sea(woodwinds)
(sirens in b#)
and the floods
(rainfall begins)
(strings cease/drums end)
And after me...

Too Risque For the Other Place

working title: Cherries Jubilee - Self Portrait Under Red Lights

One Bird To Call Your Name

beautiful
fuzz bass solos
like the sun going down
and birds and butterflies
dithered into clouds
in the autumn sky

one invisible bird who will not leave you
one big bird who will hear you when you cry
one white bird that signifies everything
one black bird to fly away when you die

no glow remaining
dim lights and clicks and whirs
just a sign that says
"24/7 do not disturb"
dreaming past heaven
and the future
where its all just as well
where mountains are
blown down into dust
and the greatest
trees fell out
in disgust waiting
for an ambulance
to come.

(with you for a moment/if we could trade places)

Complete 2011 DVD List A-Z

list of dvds

A Single Man
The Abyss
Adventures of Ichabod Crane/Wind In the Willows
The Adventures of Priscilla, Queen of the Desert
Alice in Wonderland
Air Force One
Alien
Aliens
Aliens vs Predator
Alien Vs. Predator: Requiem
Alive
Arachnophobia
Army of Darkness
A.I.
Avatar
Aviator
Backdraft
Back to the Future 1,2 & 3
Batman Returns
Bauhaus : Gotham
Bedknobs & Broomsticks
Beetlejuice
Bladerunner: Director's Cut
Blazing Saddles
Blue Velvet
Bound
Best of David Bowie: Videos
Boys n The Hood
The Birds
Blade Runner
Brave Little Toaster
The Brave One
Brazil:Box Set
Breakfast Club
The Bridge
John Cale / Fragments For A Rainy Season
Candyman
Casino Royale
Chicken Run
Chip & Dale
Clash of The Titans(2009)
Close Encounter of The Third Kind
Cloverfield
Commando
Coraline
Anton Corbin Videos
Corpse Bride
Chris Cunningham Videos
Dances Sacred and Profane
Dark Crystal
Dawn of The Dead
The Day After Tomorrow
Dark Knight, the
Day of The Dead
Daybreakers
Dead Snow
Dead Zone
Deep Impact
The Departed
District 9
The Doom Generation
The Doors
Dracula
Dune
Edward II
Edward Scissorhands
Eraserhead
Erasure Videos
Escape From New York
Evil Dead II
Existenz
Fantasia 1,2 & Legacy(boxset)
Fantastic Four:Rise of the silver surfer
Finding Nemo
Neil Finn: Seven World Collide
Firestarter
The Fearless Freaks:the flaming lips
Flaming Lips Videos
Fly
Fly II
Fright Night
From Hell
Fourth Kind, the
Fog
Fugitive, the
Ghostbusters I + II
Gladiator
Goonies
Gothika
Grey Gardens
Hannibal
Haunting
Harold and Maude
Hellraiser
Hereafter
Hitchcock: Gotta Let This Hen Out
Hitchcock Storefront Hitchcock
Hitchcock: Sex, Bugs, Food and Insects
Hollow Man
Hunt For Red October
Inception
Incredibles, the
Independence Day
I, Robot
Indiana Jones (box set)
Indiana Jones and The Kingdom Of The Crystal Skull
Iron Giant
Iron Man
Iron Man 2
James and The Giant Peach
Jaws
Joy Division: Here Are The Young Men
Jurassic Park (box set)
Jurassic Park: The Lost World
Jurassic Park III
Jurassic Park: Making Of DVD
King Kong
Kraftwerk: Minimum / Maximum
Kung Fu Panda
Ladyhawk
Labyrinth
Land of the Dead
League of Extraordinary Gentlemen
Legion
Lord of The Rings:Fellowship of the Ring
Lord of The Rings:Two Towers
Lord of The Rings:Return Of The King
Lost Boys
Love & Rockets: Haunted Fishtank
Love Is The Devil
Madonna: Videos
Marjoe
Matrix
Matrix Reloaded
Matrix Revelations
Mary Poppins
Meaning of Life
Michael, George: Ladies and Gentlemen Videos
Milk
Mirrors
Mommy Dearest
Morriseey: Oye Esteban
Morrissey: Who put the M in Manchester
Mysterious Skin
Namaha Man
New Jack City
Night of The Comet
Nightmare on Elm Street
Nightmare Before Christmas
Night of the Living Dead
9
Nomi Song
101 Dalmatians
Pandorum
Paris is Burning
Passengers
Patriot Games
Pi
Pet Shop Boys videos
Pirates of the Caribbean
Pirates of the Caribbean 2
Pirates of the Caribbean 3
Point Break
Poltergeist
Polar Express
Prince of Darkness
Prestige
Predator
Public Enemies
Purple Rain
Quarantine
REM Videos
Requiem For A Dream
Return of The Living Dead
Return of The Living Dead II
Robocop
Romancing The Stone
Saving Private Ryan
Secret of Nihm
Sherlock Holmes
Shutter Island
Sick and Twisted Animation Festival
Sick and Twisted Animation Festival 2
Silence of The Lambs
Simpson's Series I
Simpson's Series II
Simpson's Series III
Simpson's Series IV
Simpson's Series V
Simpson's Series VI
Simpson's Series VII
Simpson's Series IX
Simpson's Series X
Simpson's Series XI
Simpson's Series XII
Simpson's Series XIII
Simpsons Movie
Sleeping Beauty
Sleepy Hollow
Slither
Smiths Videos
Kathy Smith Workout DVD
Snakes on a Plane
Snow White & The Seven Dwarves
Something Wicked This Way Comes
Spider
Spiderman
Spiderman 2
Spiderman 3
Splendor
Star Wars I, II & III(box set)
Sweeney Todd
Suede: Lost In TV
Terminator
T2
Terminator: Rise
Thelma and Louise
Thing, the
300
Time Bandits
Tony
Total Recall
Toy Story I + 2(box set)
Toy Story 3
Transformers
Trick or Treat
Tron
Tron Legacy
12 Monkeys
24 Hour Party People
28 Days Later
28 Weeks Later
2010
2012
True Romance
Twister
U2 Videos
Up
Warriors
Watchmen
Watership Down
Robin Williams: Live on Broadway
Willy Wonka and The Chocolate Factory
Who Framed Roger Rabbit
Witches of Eastwick
Wolfman
X-Men
X2
X-men 3:Last Stand
X-Men Origins: Wolverine
Young Frankenstein
Zodiac
ZombieLand

Untitled # 226

clings like a sailor
to the sarcophagus
who's been lost at sea
for far too long
when we should have been flying

so for the time we were sad,
or tormented
by the dead dancing
at the altar
of whores
its confusing
all the passing
and the corpses lining up
trying to settle out
on the old score

baby, only you know
how hard it is
when we were blind.

b#

Morningrise

but for now
lets dance
like isolation
like disorder
from that
peel session
broken dreams
virtuous silence
but lets dance
the night is full
of stars where sun will
morningrise
with a symphony
full of surprise
full of spring
and a crack of dawn
to watch you bathe
in transcending the
hues of the vistas
are you there at all?
yoo hoo are you there who?
there who?
who hue?

Blindfolded

a disguise with cut out
eyes full of blind ambition
pull it over like wool
opportunist with robust
sycophantic profiteers
leering in the distance
while towing the party line
everything is fine
dinner for the swine
lets row the boat
over the falls
manipulate the vantage point
straight procrastinator and vacillation
in the progress span
from dust to dawn
and back again
hey hey
hey...

Untitled # 225

the blaze
across the silent
phases of the moon
you were in my dreams
ethereal and moving
in strange circles around me
your red glowing eyes
and the breath of ether
surrounding you like
feathers on a bird
like uncles on the third
like every sunset
captured in the
eyes of a gull

Favorite New Drink

"New Osama drink, two shots and add water!"

Untitled # 224

half mute and desireless
your quiet skin
lays out long on plywood worn
jinxed but for purpose
grab life by the throat
and it sings like
lyrebird

in the morning
roll the saxophones
coleporterstringarrangements
and dulcet tones
faint pulses
and fades into fuzz
crackling through
old radios

just containers
for passion
and disease
what makes us want
to make sense
of din or
death's ease?
to have only one song?
to have them all be so long?
Its just a trap
chew your own foot off
run for the hills
shake off the scent

(unfinished)

Flowers On The Seawall

the cycle goes in reverse
curses
trumpets play
mark the spaces
heroes and traces
of zeroes...

fragrance
on the sea wall
coats salted tongues
on the brim of fire extinguished
concentrated battlefields over in seconds

while the dragons sleep

way down inside the whispers
the trees are towering without reply
the earth is flesh and blood
with a heart
that fuses

there is nothing to say
the memories
and scars of wars
rains washed away
hearts can heal
but mountains of steel
remain unowned.

like a bullfighter stranded on a reef
the last aboard the boat in disbelief
sirens scream like gods and virgins
cry like plastered models
embracing urns
in Rome.

Time comes to show
we are nothing more
than that we know
the threat of edges
of time
of the sea
all we are
is carbon
left to
be.

Pakistan and the Fishes

Fuck Pakistan. Let me just say it. Fuck them...

Seriously, the fact they had this guy living right next door to one of the largest military training camps in the country and miles from the capital, for 5 fucking years-after 2 years living in another metropolitan area-they couldn't figure it out? Living BLOCKS from several high ranking military and political leaders? When they say they've been looking for him high and low with their own intelligence all this time?

Guess what, its a crock of shit. They claim to be looking for him-we give them BILLIONS of dollars in foreign aid(while at home we're cutting education, welfare, Social security, etc) ostensibly to help fund the looking. Here is the deal. They KNEW they had him. What other logical explanation is there? Its like saying every police force in the country is looking for your mom. And she lives in Hayward! just an hour away! she's got laptops! 5 Husbands AND kids! and NOBODY SEEMS TO NOW WHERE SHE IS!?

Riiiiight.

I say we cut every goddamn dollar of aid to Pakistan now. They've consistently developed nuclear technology, aided terrorists both financially and physically(all well before Bin Laden was hiding there) against our wishes while claiming to be our allies. You can never tell what face you are talking to with their government. The Bin Laden supporters in Pakistan are now making a fuss because we didn't tell them we we're going in to get him? Why in hell would we let them know? So they could tell him AGAIN and he could move somewhere else like last time? When its clear their military and security forces have been compromised by Taliban and Al Qaida sympathizers? What? Are we stupid? He murdered 3,000+ Americans, several dozen of which were innocent Muslims, ranging in age from their late 60s to a couple’s unborn child. Six of these victims were Muslim women, including one who was 7 months pregnant. Many were stockbrokers or restaurant workers, earning a living to care for their families.

There were converts and immigrants, hailing from over a dozen different countries and the U.S. There were heroes: a NYPD cadet and a hotel worker, who sacrificed their lives attempting to rescue others. The Muslim victims were parents to over 30 children, who were left orphaned without one or both of their parents. And they were worried about him not getting a proper Muslim burial? Hello!? Is it proper Muslim burial technique to BLOW UP, BURN and force people to jump hundreds of feet to their own death? I didn't think so. fuck them ,fuck him-I'm glad the last thing the sonaofbitch ever saw was an American soldier shooting his rotten black brains all over the compound walls. No virgins for you dick face-just a one way ticket to dinner with the fishes. See ya...and I wouldn't want to be ya!!

Generation Gore

No this entry is not about our former Vice President. Call me old fashioned, as in REALLY old fashioned, civil war era-where they left the heads of the losers on poles for their wives to find old fashioned. I wish they would post the photos of him, just to shut up all the truthers. It can't be much worse than the three men they have already shown with bullet holes to the head. And really, in this day and age where graphic violence is part of our culture(like it or not) these pictures and many just like it are already available at a mouse click on Google images.

At the trial for the man who hit the jeep, when they showed pictures of the Gina and Maria, the girls in the back seat of the car with their spinal columns protruding from their shoulder blades, jaws ripped off and skin torn from their faces the gasps in the courtroom were audible. My portion of testimony came directly afterward. what a bizarre day that was...so long ago. But it showed me the general public is mostly sheltered from these types of images in America. In Europe and elsewhere, where terrorism has long been a problem, images of mangled and twisted bodies end up on the front page with regularity, they wouldn't flinch in deciding to publish these images. How else could their citizenry know for sure. Hell the played the video tape of Nicolae Ceausescu and his wife after being shot to death. We must look like pussies by comparison.

Anyway....I thank my lucky stars for a grim fascination with death and decay-what can I tell you-I'm an artist-as well as a a lifetime of horror movies. I know they scare Robert to death(sorry honey!) but roll off my shoulders like so much water off a ducks back. I think in time they will be released. Maybe when the hoo haa dies down a bit. Obama is no dummy. this is all about strategy in the face of slippery slopes.

Sleepwalking (astronauts report it feels good)

I was out late at night in the castro. it was seemingly a busy wednesday evening for the bars. after stopping to get my medications at Walgreens I began walking home. then I heard this shouted:

"Let me know when you loose the rest of your teeth so you can blow me better."

I turned around to see a young man who has been living on and off in the streets for the last two or more years, ruddy faced(drunk), unwashed, half naked walking around barefoot, wearing only a harness and -barely- a pair of levi's jeans. There has now become a rather large contingent of homeless vagrant teens and young adults that have really moved into the Castro in a very demonstrable way. They are rude, arrogant, high and aggressive. And mentally ill, at least they certainly exhibit all the symptoms. There have always been homeless teens in the castro-but they were either visibly trying to better themselves or you didn't see them because they knew it looked bad if you were just sitting around all day trying to 'spange'. This new crew has obviously dropped all pretense and are just on 'fuck it all' nihilism mode.

Time to find a new place to live. I will find a job, I will move out of here. Patience Steve, patience.

Dark Stars Turn Into Light

All the dark matter of the universe is absorbed when it disintegrates, like a black hole sucks in matter, creating an equal strong 'positive' reaction elsewhere-somewhere else, unknown or unreachable-in the universe. One star has to die in order for a new star to live. All the matter we have it the same we started with-stretched out like ribbons over a vibrating sea of invisible wires.

By changing the path of this seed, I have changed the course of history. For a moment, time is in my hand. I look up, and hear the buzzing and humming of the soul's broadcasting.

Hell Itself

there are no more games
no stained class architecture
blasting up into the sky
for flames to laugh at
from hell itself.

One more face in the gallery
of perpetual evil
swindled by Poseidon's
watery wailing sea
one more martyred
failure where there
shouldn't be.

But somewhere the nights are twice as long
Somewhere the hole that's left behind
sitting like an empty canon
corroding droning entropy withers
fascism fighting against
chisels ringed with
phony thorns singing
like barbed wire
round the lonely hearts
of children.

Glass Moment

pop music
shot a hole
in the moon

we laughed
through cracks
in the glass

in the moment
stones glistened
like soft stars

you counted
hours passed by
lost in jazz