Spiders Are Free

from family drama
from anxiety
from money
from pain

Misunderstood
Feared
Under appeciated
Slandered

And maybe like me they just want to be appreciated for trying to add beauty to the world instead of tearing it a new hole in selfishness.

see you girls next summer*

Doctor Miscommunication

who would've thought
wrong
all the tests come back negative
all the tests come back
to haunt you
singing like angels
of death in your non-sleep
the broken lines
and the broken home
break up the ending
of the difficult song
whatever they say
you have to do
whatever missed communication
they hesitate,
we wait
locked in a room
somewhere
waving my hands
like a crazy person
in the air

they find your nick name
on his neck chain
correct change
when all the
gambling came
to an expensive end

some time to kill
some sleeping pills
valium, downers,
drugs for out of towners
roll out of one
bed into another
the dogs bark
the corked suburban still life
fruit on the table
bills paid when you feel able
would you even notice
if you were alone
when it became dark
was it any fun
when the harpies and
the witches
came and
stole your tongue?

Donut store jingles for dead serbian poets

you think your
soft side
displays weakness,
error, a hole
to stick the spike
in and twist,
to exploit
when you show
vulnerability
in the face
of adversity.

Living in another world
tell me what's so wrong
with love this time around?
I know trust isn't easy
when there's such misery.
I won't give it up
when the groove's just started.
No I won't
give it up.

You were cloak
but like new rain
you soaked
right through
my defenses.
I'm lost
in the realm
of the senses.
white picket fences
got to give it up
give it up
give it up
give it up
tell me what's so wrong
with the dark places
love comes from
When you've been
so long without?

I've no answers
I just offer chances
to the unanswered question.
I know it won't rest here
people are still crying there.
truth gets hard up
there's no sense in lying.
Help me!
Find a way through this maze
I can't help it.
Get past this evil threat.
Only angels wouldn't fear this dread
bottled up
like volatile matter
you hold like its a baby
speech get tied up
Help me!
Far away from this maze...
I can't help myself
(living in another world
with all this evil dread)
but its another world
In another world
got to give up
the evil that sews
through my skin like demons
stone shattered with
a flower...help me!
far away from this maze....
I can't help myself....
god sicks his angels
he only knows what kind of tale
you tell....in another world
to you.
to you...
to you...

Thinking of you...

every rush of white noise
as the water begins to run...

Every tap of every key
the keyboard makes...

Every door slowly shutting
every creak of the upstairs floor
every moan and groan and
sexual coan that covers
the stones that you
left behind in my heart.

(I want to take a power drill to my temple to let all the heat and pain run away)
(I just wish someone had told me that our love couldn't last and no love last forever)