no more....

it won't hurt anymore
when my eyes are closed
no more bread crumbs left
in a darkened forest
on a trail leading
off the rails
to nowhere...

no choking hands in the void,
red eyes peering into my
deep unconscious mind
leaving scars that
would make
a slasher weep...

Its all in here in front of me,
had it been here all along?
too busy looking over my shoulder
into the past
growing older,
into the pain,
into thousands of black rabbits
and the deafening thunder
of thousands of gears
grinding up my childhood heart.
Thought it was better off left in its box
of blood soaked bandages
thrown down a dark hole
and left to be
forgotten.

but a little blood left
kept hidden for myself
stored away from the light
let to run free again
with you tonight.

A little hope left unfettered
in a believing heart
can still save someone.
and if luck intervenes,
if desire survives
in the middle of dreams,
rarer still in a lifetime,
that hearts once grounded
once again learn to fly

(unfinished)