Its all about the work

"After all, Debussy was considered impossibly avant-garde in his time. It's hard to credit such a response to his music today. Similarly, Brahms piano concerto #1 was reviewed in its day as 'noise'. We need to grow into modern works. We shouldn't ask that things be made too easy for us."

David Sylvian, on modern artistic development.

God I love this....so right-fucking-on its hard to imagine. Yeah, you develop the work, but the relationship to the work, or the relationship it has for others is what it becomes. That happens outside the initial burst of creative spark that gives reason to the intangible ideas we pull out of the ether. But after that, what? To me that space is when something moves from being the "work" to "art". when someone else grasps its experience. when it resonates outside the body of its creator.

And that is the power of art(which is a big bucket of others things, not just 'painting'). Pretty potent stuff if you have the talent to capture the lightning in a bottle. Alchemy and Ecstacy anyone?

Chaos

You say its chaos
and it is
because if you will something
to be
then it becomes real.
not as flesh
but moreso
than memory
a fleeting glimpse
into madness
no need for epiphany.
I try to avoid it
while not avoiding you
but you claim
we're not happening
on the same page
as one.
I'm so tired
of trying to please
of begging
and pleading
hoping to appease.
I just want the one thing
all of us want.
A life together
to fight the storms
instead of a lonely house
to haunt.
I once said I loved you
but I no longer know for sure.
it so difficult
to know
anything when emotions blur.
You want to be on the same page
you say chaos is you normal
why wait for a break in the clouds
its never coming
I keep on humming
hoping for a change in
the weather.

stars in the coffee bars

I saw you
for a moment
under the hazy streelight
glow and disappear
into the lamp black of
the darkness
and night

guys!

guys that only want other men like themselves
guys that want the total opposite.
guys that lie about everything
guys that tell the truth until it hurts as bad as a lie.
guys that are self obsessed.
guys that are obsessed with me.
guys that are emotionally distant
guys that are needy
guys that are...just another stranger.

I think I am getting to the point where I am really fucking fed up with men in general. If I didn't occasionally meet one I thought was sweet and kind and could be supportive I would put them all in a box and bury it.