Something Special

I look out the window
Haven't seen you in a while
the last time we kissed,
the last time you smiled
like I kept your heart in my pocket
to tear it out would be
like ripping an arm out
of its socket...
short of
a locket
its the only thing
sometimes I feel like
there is left to hold on to.
when the black rabbits come again
and they're calling my name
and dancing...
I'm trying to work
out something special
in a void where I'm
left wandering and lost
but the quiver of my arrows
seems to be somewhere else and
the clear vantage point I once had
has all but faded from my view.

I'm a little blind now.

I know I'm facing in the right direction
even with my seemingly mixed bag of intentions.
trying to make some more beautiful rainbows
less of living in black and white.
don't always know my
wrong from right.
don't want to fight
fade
out...

See you

Her hair and his
were entwined
and astray.
The car
and the red
leather interior
beyond skill
and love
stolen
lot, keys
and the dust
and the alchohol
and the pills
and the sleeping
while the engine
ran
and ran
ran away
with the time
and their lives
and the memory of
love in the depths
at the end of time...

Holy Cow, Angela Landsbury wins a Tony!

I'll never forget your face
the same after 80 winters
your long hair
and september valentines
Hard to believe
you'll always be mine
Back in history
and before the war
You thought of me
calling from Japan
on business
the gaze I saw reflected
in chance moments
and your kiss
hit the nail upon the head
catch the

I never knew
like some fiend
that girls were cruel
you were 17
you bucked up
faced the truth
learned to shoot pool
and broke away
from the shame
changed your face
and then your name
account closed
no more withdrawls
after September
the winds will have gone
from whence they came

UP

The new Disney/Pixar movie really surprised me. The first 20 minutes are probably some of the most sublime and sad moments I have ever seen in a cartoon or animated movie. I could not stop crying! Even though the film has elements which are obviously fantastical, there is so much grounding the film emotionally, you barely realize how strange the circumstances of the plot are(Balloons tied to a house that happens to float all the way to South America overnight?) yet that alone is not enough to stop me liking this film.

It works on a lot of levels, even though there were times when I thought the pace was a little slow. Of course the visuals are spectacular-even animated they are spectacular. I saw the film in 3D but honestly, other than the title blocks and the some of the (talking) dog chase scenes, I didn't really get that much added to the film. It was really not necessary but it got me to fork over another three bucks to the Castro Street Theatre where I saw the film. And I love supporting local movie houses in the heart of the gayest neighborhood on the planet.

Go see the film-its aimed at kids obviously but there is a wonderful film for adults in there as well, something for everyone. If you have recently lost a loved one or a spouse this film may be hard to watch but essential to healing one's heart. I highly recommend it.

Kiss of the Cockatoos

sweat beads on my hands
and behind the eyes
stars are lingering
lids closed
deep black pools
with mercury glissening
under-surfaces
and the rain
like a hundred thousand bullets
of light
will the ideas ev'r end?
Are there any thoughts
left to send
in space?